Pouring My Heart Out to You

I did it again…the one thing I didn’t want to do I did. Why is it that I push away the people that I care about most? I don’t understand it one bit. I guess in my fit of frustration I snapped and thinking it would help me, it just made things worse. I said, “leave me alone” but in girl language that means, “don’t let me push you away…pull me out of this because all I want is for you to be close.” But that’s not always understandable when you’re not a girl.

This break has already been stressful and it just started Wednesday. Working long hours, being away from family, and the one person I love most…sigh…This is going to take some of God’s strength to survive it :( God is in control and whatever he sees fit will happen.

Praying for a better day…